Rob Krar is a Canadian distance runner, a force in the ultrarunning world. Back in 2017 he suffered a devastating knee injury that meant no running, no training, little physical activity. It also meant stealing from Krar his sense of purpose and identity. Krar’s mental health spiraled downward to the point where he began having suicidal thoughts, a terrifying and dark place, a giant hole he had to force himself to slowly climb out of.

He’s running again, competed recently in the Leadville 100, in fact, and has begun to climb out of that hole. It’s never easy to open up about mental health struggles, and this video is powerful opening up indeed. It’s also flat-out gorgeous.

The video was made with help from the Movember Foundation, to spread the word about men’s mental health struggles.